Texting

That is why I do not want to text you. because when I did it you will start to ask me "when to belanja minum?" which means you are asking me out. honestly I do not want to go out. but not because I don't like you, I just segan. it's like stupid insane girl sitting in front of you saying nothing but just ghenyih ghenyih macam pompuan gatai. konon konon pemalu la sangat. yes I am. I memang pemalu especially with guys. I talked with them but with my eyes looking around like seeing something fly up my heads. even if there's no one walk pass us I would still looking at the street not to your eyes or mouth or nose or all over your face. I wonder how you guys do that. you talked with your eyes wide open and stare straight into someone's face. I lose. yes. my confident is very low. low self-esteem, I am. lost my words, I am. afraid of asking because you might ask me back, I am. not comfortable when people's watching even they're not, I am. yes perasaan only.   but He is watching. and I'm afraid.